Date:	2005-08-19 22:52
Subject:	Sooo, where'd the summer go?
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	"Til There Was You" The Beatles

Okay, so I practically have not updated all summer. I know, pretty sad, being I've not had too many pressing matters on hands. So I'll divide it up...sort of...

Work: There was a period where I worked for 3 weeks straight. That sucked, but the checks were nice. Very nice. Now I'm more back to normal. I actually don't have to work until this next friday...A WHOLE week off!

Transportation: I finally got my own ve-hicle; a '95 VW Golf. Black. Cloth interior. I just got a nice CD player put in (the radio that was in the car when I got it...it skipped every time I went over a bump, or just when it felt like it..yes, the radio). Oh, and it also has a steering wheel, etc...ok, I'll stop. This car just made a 5 hour trip to NJ, then to NY, and then back home. It's called My/Mack's "little tin can."

Friends: Hmmm, haven't seen too many of the school friends this summer. I've seen Alise the most, and we had tons of fun at her new house. I've been meeting tons of new people this summer (Non-GHS'ers). I prefer out-of school friends sometimes, because then there is always something new going on. Maybe that's juuust me. And Kelsey, my bestest friend - St. Mike's this year for you. I'm gonna miss you tons.

College Search: I just looked at Iona College in NY. It was pretty nice, and I liked it alot, but I'm going to be looking at a few others this fall. My top so far I thiiink: Syracuse NY, B.U. MA, and Iona NY. But there might be more... It's hard to find the right college because I want my major in Advertising anf Marketing.

Schoolwork: I took the SAT Prep course in July at school. Yippie. AP Work...wellll...I decided that I am actually not doing AP English - I know, a shock....but I reallllly wanted to take Myth & Imagination. But I am taking AP History, and the work, well lets say that it is currently ongoing.

Vacation time: I took from Monday to Friday off and went with my tin can, and my oldest brother, Craig, to NJ, to visit the relatives. It was tons of fun because I had not seen any of them for a very long time. My cousin has the cutest baby, Jason. I saw my nana, and sat by the pool, and in the pool, and in the hottub. I went with my cousin Liz to the most insanse mall in the whole world. This mall was like the millionare mall. I was bigger than our Mall of NH, but every single store was high class. Like I'm talking Gucci, Prada (they had storeguards in there - like bouncers), Fendi, Chanel, Armani, D&G, Louis V., Jimmy Choo and Via Spiga (drooool-shoes), stuff that practically no one can afford. There were tons of $500 shoes that I was drooling over...sigh. And the people there (that came into the stores), were SO snobby and mean. And then yesterday I went to my aunt's and uncle's Jersey beach house for the day. I came back today. Overall, a very wonderful time.

Summer Music & Movies: Batman, Wedding Crashers, Charlie & the Chocolate Factory, maybe more. Favorite was Wedding Crashers. Music, I just got a bunch from my cousin. Favorite artists of the summer: The Killers, Black Eyed Peas, The Beatles, Coldplay, U2, Dispatch, Xavier Rudd, Weezer, Jack Tripper, O.A.R., Donovan F., Norah Jones.

Life at homey-home: Not too amazing, not too bad. Had a fight with my dad before my vaca, but what's new? My brothers, fine as always. There's nowhere to park. Warning to all: when you come in my driveway, you either block a few cars in, or a few cars will block you in.

Other stuff I've done this summer:
~ Saw Alise's new house, and had fun hottubbing.
~ Started running more, because I'm doing cross-country in the fall. Oh yeah. Me. Ask to Mr. Hartung if you don't believe me.
~ I cleaned my room, realllly cleaned it.
~ I can home at 5 in the morning, more than once, and my parents didn't notice.
~ Overheated my tin can, and the coolant thing almost exploded.
~ Got really freaked out over the college process.
~ Realized that there are nice, and then, crap guys. Wait, I already knew that. What I mean to say is that I've found some really great guys friends that I can hang out with, and friends is better right now.
~ Convinced my parents to get cable and good internet service. That just took about forever.

Okay, as to not bore anyone too much, I'm ending. Some of you, I may not see until school starts, some I may see before. Some college-bound I will not see for a quite a while. Good-bye, and good luck!

See you all around!

Date:	2005-07-20 00:52
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	"Unwritten"

I dunno if you can see my user picture....but that's me!!! Haha...I kno, it's a change!

I'm bored out of my mind and I can't seem to go to sleep. I'll try to find a decent movie to watch....hmmmm. I'll prob end up with something extremely crappy. Hmmmm...

Well, since I have nothing to say, and I just wanted to put my piture on LJ, cuz it's my new hair color, I'm going to find something else to occupy my time. If anyone knows how to actually post a picture on LJ, let me know, because I tried for quite a while...it didn't work, otherwise there'd be a picture here.

This song says it all:



I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Date:	2005-07-19 00:47
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	"Mongo Bongo" - Mr. & Mrs. Smith

Soooooooooo tired.
Stop.

Excruciatingly tired...not spelled right.

WOOOOOOH!!!!. Pardon me.

I have not written (or it is wrote?)in here for the lonnnngest time. I've been working too much. Since Friday, all through this coming Monday (not today, next Monday). Don't you wish you were me?

Actually, cuz I'm trying to find a car, I need the money.

Tonight was fun. I went over to Kev Nev's. Just five of us there, which was fun, watching Bad Boys II, while Paul and Kev "yelled" at each other, while Ben told them to both shut up. And the funny hair, the girly look. Haha. It was wicked good to relax... for once. Now I can't even think tho...blearyyyy.

This week I'm working at 4 every day, along w/ SAT Prep from 12-2 (which I didn't do the homework for - I had better things to do). But after 9/10 at night after work, I can go out.

I'd better go to bed, my head sort of hurts, and I have to do like 30 pages of SAT homework for 12 tomorrow. Not fun.


See you all later. :]

>>

I now remember so very clearly why I don't tell people things.

Date:	2005-07-11 00:21
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	"Live This Life"

I worked over half a day at Pizza Market.

Over 12 hours...painfffffffuuul.

I'm letting that sink in.


My feet hurt.



Now I'm hanging out with my brother. Thank god there is something I can do at 12:23 in the morning. And I can't spell. Every word I write I have to rewrite, and then I don't know if I'm spelling that one right. Confusing.

Tomorrow I work from 4-9, prob later, as always. So I'll prob get up sometime in the afternoon and then go to work. Boring day.

Going to get some sleep/watch a movie. Later.

Date:	2005-07-08 12:48
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy

I have had a very good week, except for SAT Prep, but there is four boys, me and Mrs. Spooner, so it's actually a pretty funny class.

Last night...I <3 you Alise for saving my butt :] . I owe you. I'll make it up to you by going shopping *cough*. Oh, my mom freaked out last night, but I calmed her down. Meh.

Bored right now, I just got rid of my dad, ugh! He gets vvveryyy annoying. Whatever.

I am working this whole weekend, Friday through Monday, at least 7 hours each day. It'll get me away from home, so that's always fun. At least I'll see my brothers, because usually I'll see them there about twice a day, which is more than I see my parents on the weekends.

I can't wait to go to NJ in August with my brother and visit all my relatives that I have not seen in almost two years. That's incredibly sad. At the same time I know I'm looking at at least 1 college in NY. Yes! We might also go look at some in Massachusetts. I'm so excited, but nervous, aghhhhhh.


"And a little place that sits beneath the sky."

"But then you took me by surprise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew."

Hmmm...wow. I really do like the Killers.


Incredibly bored, so I'm going to go clean, just because. I'm out. Bye.

Date:	2005-07-06 14:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	excited
Music:	"Breathe"

When did my life just get a million times better better????

I'm not even going into it, but I'm really happy, and we're leaving it at that.

Also, letting go...it helps way more than a lot. Things change when you let go of something that wasn't even okay or ever good ennough.

Scale of 1-10, I totally go with the cheesy 11.

Date:	2005-07-05 00:43
Subject:	Contentment (spelling??)
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	"Everything Will Be Alright"

This past weekend all I've done is work, from friday through monday. I've barely even been home at all, but that's ok. It has been tons of fun just relaxing and trying to not take things so seriously anymore.

Today (yesterday - ok, clarification, Monday, July 4th), after work I went with Liz to the New Boston fireworks, but we did not even pay any attention to them. We met Leo and Joe there, then took a bunch of back roads to Joe's house in Dunbarton. Then we just chilled, watched A Night at Roxbury (I think), and then we all went outside and built a bonfire and sat on the back of a truck. Liz and I were the only girls, and there were a bunch of guys, but it was better that way, because there was no nastiness and drama, just a bunch of friends hanging out.

And I <3 the frindly cat that hopped from person to person, he/she was sooo adorable. That cat was the friendliest animal I have ever seen. And I met a really nice person tonight that I wish I'd known before. Oh, and making it from the red blinking light in Dunbarton to Sully's in 10 minutes, and to Pinardville from Dunbarton in 18 minutes. That just made my day (I was driving - BeWaRe!!...just kidding).

And the best part. Get this, my anal parents, yes them. I told them I was going to the fireworks at 9:30, and then I didn't know what I'd be doing. And I didn't have a phone on me. I got home at 12:30, and my dad was not even up, and there was no note for me, and no frantic search party. There might be hope for me after all!!!!!!!!!

On Tues (today) I have to go to SAT prep from 12-2, but other than that I have nothing to do, so I'll prob go out late again. If anybody wants to do anything just give me a call sometime tomorrow. I'm going to try and catch some zzz's now, otherwise I won't be able to learn anything tomorrow - haha.


You don't need to compromise
I'm dreaming bout those dreamy eyes
I never knew, I never knew
But it's alright...

Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright
Everything will be alright



>>>> I am very content right now.

Date:	2005-07-01 00:02
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	energetic
Music:	Mr. & Mrs. Smith soundtrack

Well, today was like 10 x the fun I've had since forever. I saw Kels, that's why :]

Today we went to two different malls, swimming, to D.D.'s (the weirdest drivethrough I have ever seen - we had to drive around the whole parking lot...it made no sense), ordering Johnny Damon, touching Johnny Damon's autograph from yesterday (EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!), getting amazing ice-cream, and going to see Mr. & Mrs. Smith (we were wondering why they beat each other up, and thenn had sex...???)...And then we talked about Brad Pitt on the way home, like how good he looked in Troy. Heeellooo!!!!

Now we are just chilling in her basement and trying to decide what to do next. Always stuff to do in Londonderry.

I'm working the whole weekend, and then I start SAT prep class at GHS on Tues. Ugh...shoot me. It's Tue, Wed, and Thur, from 12 - 2, for all of July. There goes all my vacation plans (well, the few that I had).

See you all later. Drop by Pizza Market if you feel so inclined. I like seeing people. I usually get out at 11, on Friday and Sat so I can go places after that. And Sunday I work until 9 or whenever. Okay, bye!

Date:	2005-06-28 12:01
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused
Music:	"The Damage In Your Heart"

Okay, can we just leave this alone. I mess up everything in life. And confronting is not one of my strong points. Even talking about things is worse.





I just want to think about things for a while.











Please.

Date:	2005-06-27 22:15
Subject:	Cure for anything
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	"All These Things That I've Done"

Last night I worked 10 hours and then I went out last night with Steph, Kelly and Emily. We had tons of fun dancing *cough* on stage *cough* - Haha. Kelly even fell off!!! We all know why, but we couldn't stop laughing for like 10 minutes. Oh, and the cute Bosnian...lol...Steph knowsssss....

Alise, Cory, that freshman was there...I know you know him, so I thought I'd mention it...

Today I slept in wicked late and cleaned. What excitement....!!...delayed excitement reaction.  

This weeks schedule:

Tues: Running. Work: 4-8 / 4-12 (whichever one I feel like)

Wed: Running, anything else (call me)

Thur: Seeing Kelsey!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri: Work: 4-12

Sat: Running. Work: 4-12

Sun: Running. Work: 12:30 - 12

I know - Boring isn't it. I love life during the summer. Call me on any of those days except Thursday. I want to actually see people this summer.

Oh, and the job hunt still continues. Ew.

Now for a cup of green tea and a movie marathon on my computer at 10:30 at night. Yes!

Date:	2005-06-26 01:29
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative
Music:	"Sand in My Shoes" - Dido

So....I totally have the right to vent - correct me if I'm wrong please.

Work was overstuffed with girls tonight, but once they all left it got busy...go figure. I was there from 3:30 to 12, which was when I finally left.

I called Kelsey today, racked up a lot of long distance minutes on the phone bill. We talked about everything and anything, and I can't believe that she is leaving for St. Mikes in the fall...absolutely no fair. None whatsoever.

Oh, and I talked to Robyn about everything, and she got pissed for me, being I can't get pissed! <3 U Robyn!!! And I cannot believe u told Austin S. about that...I really hope he did not talk to ___. Lol. Tho it would have been slightly funny in a bang ur head against the wall way.

Working from 11-9 tomorrow, then going out w/ Steph and Kelly!

Hmm, thought for a thought...
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Under the weight of your wings
You are a god and whatever I want you to be
And I wonder if truly you are
Nearly as beautiful as I believe

I will pretend I know not of your thoughts
And even the way that they mirror my own
I'll take you away in the way that you take me and go where I go

Fall away to the sound of my heart to your beat
Melancholy and cool, kind of bitter sweet
Love on repeat
I'm echoing all your philosophies
And as I fall away to the sound of my heart to your beat

I make believe you are all that I'll ever need

All that I need...

- Anna Nalick
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Feeling better just cuz I have awesome friends who stay up at 1 a.m. and talk to me.

Other than that...Can I just say - It'll be more than a little uncomfy.

Breathing helps in life I have realized. 

Date:	2005-06-24 23:32
Subject:	WTF?
Security:	Public
Mood:	restless
Music:	"Everything Will Be Alright" The Killers

Okay, I had an awesome week after school ended, but then...today...

I went to work today..fun, as always. And I'm going to be out of a job for about a month and a half, because they are ripping down and rebuilding Pizza Market :[  ....Agh....So that's absolutely wonderful. Then I saw Liz when she came by with her sister. Then I saw Sarah and Janelle. Then Jenn, and Alec and others....fun...

But I am in a baddish mood now. Why? That's all. You don't frickin know...and if you did...It'd be different...So why????????? Oh, and you, yeah you..you know...why??? May I ask?

I can not believe how screwed up some of this stuff is.

I learned a few things that I did not know. Screwy summer.  

I really don't care. I just wish I was informed of this sooner, or maybe not at all - which one is better????

......

Summer, I really can't wait.

.......

Waiting in a shadow,

Searching in the limelight.

Walking through a field,

Brushing the moon aside.

Time will fly,

Like the firefly flitting by.

See the wind,

Flying ahead of the path.

Carelessly hearts are scattered,

Upon the broken road.

Twinkling lights above,

See the destruction below.

A whirlwind of ruins,

That this has left behind.

Date:	2005-06-15 20:09
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	relaxed
Music:	"Mr. Brightside" - The Killers

Boredom

A - Age you got your first kiss: When I was reallly little, but I think I hit the kid.. Real kiss-14. Best kiss - 17

B - Band listening to right now: The Killers

C - Crush: I think you know if you know...

D - Dad's name: William

E - Easiest person to talk to: Kelsey, Robyn...cuz u don't go to GHS and don't know anybody there.

F - Favorite band at the moment: The Killers

G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: Bears...def

H - Hometown: Goffstown

I - Instruments: Mr. Froggie Went to Town on the piano

J - Junior High: Home

K - Kids: Don't know if I want any - and if I do...2 probably

L - Longest car ride ever: Canada - like 8 hours

M - Mom's name: Enid

N - Nicknames: Mack, Mackenzie, Lulu, Winnie

O - One wish: To start my own business when I'm older

P - Phobia[s]: Crabs..like on the beach...lol, spiders, people ignoring me (dead serious), failing...

Q - Quote[s]: I have way too many: "Only two things are infinite, the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not sure about the former."
"Laughter is the shortest distance between two people." "A lie told often enough becomes truth."
"I've developed a new philosophy... I only dread one day at a time." --- Heh...Charlie Brown, oh how I love you...
"Assumptions allow the best in life to pass you by."
Yeaaa...I'm gonna stop now.

R - Reason to smile: When someone I like is standing next to me, smiling at me.
Passing Chemistry is a very good reason to smile as well.

S - Song you sang last: "These Words" - Natasha Bedingfield

T - Time you woke up [today]: 6:00, but I just laid in bed for a while..

U - Unknown fact about me: Geezzz... I have two scars on my forehead from walking into our antique door-handles when I was little.

V - Vegetable you hate: Radishes, squash, beets...

W - Worst habit(s): I write too much unneeded info - 18 pg extrordinary American paper...oh and I procrastinate, like I'm doing now, instead of studying for my algebra final.

X - X-rays you've had: My ankle and leg.

Y - Yummy food: Mum's homemade macarroni and cheese

Z - Zodiac sign: Capricorn

Date:	2005-06-12 21:20
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused

Where did my good mood that I had earlier go to??? I must have lost it somewhere in-between my history final and grumpy/upset/moody people. AGH. So much for a being happy. I give up!

Getting pissed off...

Mixed feelings now...

Actually, don't know what to feel...


Just say what you really mean,
Just say it now.
I want to find this,
Find the truth to this mystery.
It looks like a crystal sea,
Breaks at the first drop.
Just say everything,
Just say it now.
Make a wish on that star,
See it in the ocean of eyes.
I know the presence that is here,
But the thought is shattered.
Before the sky cries,
Let's run with wings.
See those stories,
Written in the steps of glory.
Do not break the dreams,
Live them everyday.
Just say what you want,
Just say it now.














.Help.

Date:	2005-06-12 13:16
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	content

Can I just say that I had the most awesome weekend. Work actually was really good, both friday and saturday - except for a person that always leaves early, leaving me to stay until closing. Grr, but it was fun. Oh and making about 150 ice creams for like 2 hours straight - YES! Haha...

And it was Katelyn's birthday on friday. <3 u Katelyn. Last night she had her bonfire, and it was loads of fun. I made an amazing tasting s'more with a very well cooked marshmallow...mmmm...and i shared it with molly. :]

Today I have to work on my history and women's prespectives final - Now that is exciting. I am so pissed that I can't go to Lori's dance recital, cuz i really was looking forward to it. So now I am going to go and do the amazing schoolwork that my teachers have loaded on me. See you all tomorrow.

Date:	2005-06-01 22:30
Subject:	Boredom
Security:	Public
Mood:	content
Music:	"Right Before Your Eyes" Hoobastank

Ok, so I was bored, and ok, I should have been doing my math h/w. But I DO NOT KNOW HOW! Grrness. I saw this and stole it from Sam so I could do something with my time. Two more days of school b4 the weekened!!! YES! I have a few projects to do for finals and I need to study for the rest, so no more near-midnight quizzes for me after this :(


:x: name: Laura Wynne Mackenzie
:x: shoe size: 9 - 9&1/2
:x: siblings: Craig (24), Evan (22), Lloyd (20)
:x: jr.high: Home
:x: elementary: Home
:x: hometown: Goffstown
:x: favorite place: Wales and Mexico
:x: favorite soda: Sprite Remix
:x: favorite food: Crumpets
:x: favorite book: The Boy Next Door and Boy Meets Girl
:x: favorite pen: Uh, I have about one million pens, all advertising everything from car insurance to medicine.
:x: favorite car: Well, I like Bug convertables...they're sorta cute
:x: favorite animal: Birds
:x: water brand: Our multi-filtered water that comes out of our tap :)
:x: favorite burger place: Burger King
:x: favorite hobby: Dancing, making stuff
:x: favorite friends: I luv them all!
:x: bar or club: Either, or
:x: favorite vitamins: My mom makes me drink fizzy vitamin C when I'm sick - It's reaaaallly good.
:x: favorite show: Will and Grace!!
:x: favorite news: Fox is the best, all the others tell lies and unneeded info.
:x: gold or silver: White gold is nice..
:x: favorite dog: Collies
:x: cell phone co.: Prob Verizon, because everyone has it..
:x: favorite shirt: I always wear my cord. jacket --- so what if it not quite a shirt???
:x: favorite sport: Running i s'pose
:x: favorite alcohol: ....w/e...
:x: favorite computer: Not this one.
:x: favorite fruit: Hmmm, I really have not found a fruit that I do not like.
:x: favorite song: Right now, "Until You're Reformed" - Chevelle
:x: ketchup or salsa: Salsa
:x: favorite milkshake: Vanilla with chocolate syrup...mmm
:x: steak or lobster: Steak
:x: favorite color: Blue and green
:x: favorite weather: 75-95. And I like summer nights when it's like 70 degrees and the sun still out at 8:30pm...
:x: favorite states: NY, NJ, ME

:x: have a crush on someone: Yes
:x: wish you could live somewhere else: Yes
:x: think about suicide: No
:x: believe in online dating: No
:x: think others find you attractive: I hate thta question...x-nay..
:x: want more piercings: Double-pierced ears
:x: like cleaning: If I'm in the mood
:x: like roller coasters: YES!!! Who wouldn't??? Lol.
:x: write in cursive or print: Both, sometimes I switch off in the middle of a sentence.

:x: last talked to: My dad
:x: last thought of: my projects due at school
:x: last showered: This morning
:x: last cut your nails: Never, my nails DO NOT grow.
:x: last did laundry: This past weekend
:x: last hugged a tree: Uhh...do not recall
:x: last watched anime: Ehh, I've never reallysat down and watched anime..
:x: last prayed: Oh, that's a good one...

for or against?
:x: long distant relationships: That would be bit hard...
:x: killing people: I say no, unless it's completely for self-defense. Oh, well there is war too...
:x: teenage smoking: Against, cuz we'll all die at 50 and leave our kids massive fortunes to spend on cars and other things...and then their kids end up like Paris Hilton
:x: driving drunk: AGAINST!
:x: gay/lesbian relationships: Either way....
:x: soap operas: One Word: Cheesy


have you?
:x: ever cried over a boy: Yes
:x: ever cried over a girl: No
:x: ever been in a fist fight: No
:x: ever been arrested: No
:x: ever had a friend die: No
:x: ever dated a cousin: NO! Mean Girls (this is the best line ever) - "There's your cousin, then your first cousin, then your second..."
:x: ever used a gun: Yes
:x: ever french kiss: Yes
:x: ever finished a puzzle: Yes
:x: ever got surgery: No, but I had stiches
:x: ever got beat up: Nope
:x: ever hated someone: Yes
:x: ever made a huge mistake: Hmm. YEAH
:x: ever tried any drugs: No
:x: ever jogged a mile: Yes
:x: ever played w/ someones feelings: Sorry if I did....
:x: ever had feelings for someone younger: Not that I know of


what?
:x: shoes do you wear: I have many shoes, different every day
:x: do you sleep in: My moon Pjs, or comfy boxer short and a tank top
:x: did you eat for lunch: a bag of pretzels and yogurt.
:x: is love: ...hard to find

Number..
:x: of times I have had my heart broken?: Once...i s'pose
:x: of hearts I have broken?: I hope none...
:x: of girls I have kissed?: that Q does not pertain to me....
:x: of guys/girls you've rejected? Hmmm, a few...
:x: of drugs you taken: None
:x: of accidents you been in: None
:x: of people you lead on?: mmm...lol


do you think you are?
:x: xhottx: I hate these Q's...
:x: funny: I guess my friends consider me to be funny in my own..*cough* special *cough* way - Katelyn, Alise - History and English class?!?!!!
:x: hot: Gahh..
:x: friendly: Usually, unless the person is mean, cuz then I'm mean back... :)
:x: ugly: Hmmm, when I wake up at 7:30 to get to school for 7:46 - yes
:x: lovable: I s'pose, in my special way...
:x: caring: Hm, yeah.
:x: dorky: Yes
:x: cocky: I suppose, I can be a bit of a smart-ass (if that's the sort of cocky they're talking about)
:x: girly: I AM a girl...
:x: boyish: Not really...I never thought about it too much..
:x: smart: I realized I'm getting all 6 As and 1 B in my classes thsi year!!! That makes me happy!
:x: pimp: LOL
:x: angel: I think I got voted off that...
:x: gangster: OF COURSE!!! HAha, not reallllyy...
:x: god: No.


favorite?
:x: five letter word: Pride
:x: comedian: Tina Fey
:x: candy: Smarties
:x: cartoon: South Park
:x: cereal: Granola
:x: chewing gum: Orbitz
:x: day of week: Sat/Sun
:x: least fave day: Monday
:x: jello flavor: Ugh, Jello is groooosss
:x: summer/winter: Summer BABY!!
:x: trampolines or swimming pools: Do I have to choose??? Put the trampoline next to the pool and jump off the trampoline into the pool. My friend got a pool and we did that until her parents made us stop....

person who last?
:x: slept in your bed: Mwah..
:x: saw you cry: I think my mom/dad
:x: made you cry: It was just life that made me cry
:x: you went to the movies with: Robyn
:x: yelled at you: i dunnooo???? :) ????
:x: sent you an email: Haven't checked my e-mail in a while...

have you ever?
:x: said "i love you" and meant it?: To my family, and I meant that. To a guy - no.
:x: gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes!
:x: kept a secret from everyone?: Yes
:x: cried during a movie?: Yes
:x: at anytime owned new kids on the block?: Huh?
:x: planned your week based on the TV Guide?: As if!!
:x: been on stage?: Yes
:x: been to New York?: Yes
:x: been to California?: No
:x: been to Florida?: No
:x: Hawaii?: No
:x: China?: No
:x: Canada?: Yes
:x: Europe?: Yes
:x: what time is it now?: 11:18
:x: apples or bananas?: Apples
:x: blue or red?: Blue
:x: walmart or target?: Either or
:x: spring or fall?: Spring
:x: what are you gonna do after you finish this?: Get homework help from my Brother
:x: what was the last meal you ate?: Cottage cheese and pineapple
:x: are you bored?: MMM, just a little
:x: last noise you heard?: My brother getting stuff to eat in the kitchen
:x: last smell you sniffed: Pink, a perfume
:x: last time you went out of state/province? I can't remember

friendship/love?
:x: do you believe in love at first sight?: I really do not know...
:x: do you want children one day & if so, how many?: I do not know either, right now the answer is no. I want to live my life frist, travel, have fun, so then maybe we'll see...
:x: most important thing to you in a friendship is?: Honesty
:x: criminal record?: Huh?
:x: do you speak any other languages?: Spanish: Not too good. Welsh: Like five words
:x: name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: My blue bulletin board, my map of Wales, my antique Chinese tea set/random things, my books, my leather desk, all the old furniture, and my big blue fluffy comforter
:x: piercings and where?: My ears once pierced
:x: worst feeling in the world?: Not knowing what happened, not knowing what is happening, not knowing what will happen...
:x: whom you love: My family, my friends...oh, superman of course, jk...


:x: nickname(s): Mack, Mackenzie, Lulu
:x: initials: LWM
:x: how old do you look?: Some people think I am in college...like 20, but I think I look like I'm 17/18 (I am 17)
:x: how old do you act?: Very *COUGH* mature *COUGH*.. I can be mature when I need to, but I'm not always serious...
:x: glasses/contacts?: Contacts, sometiems I wear my glasses
:x: braces: Never had them
:x: do you have any pets?: Nope
:x: you get embarrassed?: Sometimes, if I am put on the spot
:x: what upsets you?: Soemone ignoring, rejecting, or not caring for me...

Date:	2005-05-31 20:56
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	busy
Music:	"Until You're Reformed"

Do it!!!!!

1. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
2. I will tell you what song/movie reminds me of you
3. if I were to apply an o'clock to you it would be...
4. A single word that best describes you
5. I will tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll tell you something I've always wondered about you
8. Put this in your journal

Do it!!!!!

Date:	2005-05-31 18:22
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	thoughtful
Music:	"What Am I To You?" Norah Jones

Procrastinating....

My History paper that is relatively easy is taking me forever...I just have to remember that there are only 15 more days of school left. *sigh* Hopefully rhis week will pass by quickly!

Today was pretty mild(not just weather-wise), for once. It was nice for a change.

Oh!!! and the possibility of a "senior" band&chorus trip... Ehhh!!! When asked who would go, all present raised their hands. Maybe we can all fundraise and make it to Canada?!?!?!?! I would def do that. Canada is soooo nice - There's always so much to do there, and places like Toronto and Montreal are awesome places to visit. Nova Scotia too(spelling???)

Well, since this entry will not get any more interesting than this I will go back to writing about the Rosenberg's...

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Notice that dark cloud,
As it floats across the sky.
Watch in stillness,
A tear that drops like rain.
See the drops fall,
Dancing in this downpour.
See the orange glow,
Light up the skies.
Glimpse the whisper,
The rustle of the grass.
Walk through a field,
Make the dream real.
Lie on your back,
Smile at the stars.
Dream as you always do,
Watch the moon glow.
See that face across from you,
You know it by heart.
See the heavens collide,
A smash of stars and morning sun.
Lay there in the silence,
As you always do.

Date:	2005-05-26 22:20
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	pensive
Music:	"Warning Sign" - Coldplay

I am crashing, s l o w l y...

I'm 'round the corner from anything that's real
I'm across the road from hope
I'm under a bridge in a rip tide
That's taken everything I call my own

One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing

I'm on an island at a busy intersection
I can't go forward, I can't turn back
Can't see the future
It's getting away from me
I just watch the tail lights glowing

One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
Knowing, knowing

I'm hanging out to dry
With my old clothes
Finger still red with the prick of an old rose
Well the heart that hurts
Is a heart that beats
Can you hear the drummer slowing?

One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
To knowing, to knowing, to knowing    - U2

Life gets more confusing every minute of my life...I just want to knowww...for once..

I want to know....but that would be asking too much, wouldn't it? 

I know who I am, I know where I am going, and I know what I love. But I have no clue what this is...

BLEGH!!! Gosh, what's w/ the dramaish life we juniors are leading ??? - everyone just wants out. Maybe the summer will improve things, either that, or it'll make them worse. Summers can be confusing. Well, I'm going. See everyone tomorrow...

*The sign that I couldn't read,
or a light that I couldn't see,
somethings you have to believe,
but others are puzzles, puzzling me.*